the last one....

salam...

yesterday..i had finished my 4th observation wif my mentor teacher..
it was the last one...
suppose there should b another obsrvation...
specifically pair observation...
mentor teachr + supervising lcturer will come and observe at the same time..
honestly...i am hoping dat it won't b carried out...
i'm tired...
i felt breathless every time they came n observed...
bcoz during every observation i got really nervous..
it was indeed tiring 2 control your nerves and make sure everything goes on smoothly....
please mdms....no more observation...

i am thinking of going out 2nite...
to celebrate myself!

wut do the numbers tell u?

salam...

recently, my fren introduced a new thing 2 me..
but mybe it's not new 2 u...
~~METAPHYSICS~~
have u ever heard this?

using our date of birth...
add..minus...divide and times
they will come out wif an upside down triangle
wif numbers dat somehow show wut type of person are u...
wut are ur strengths n weaknesses..
n 2 de extend dat we can somehow know how much money would we have at de end of our life...
CAN U BELIEVE IT.....Can't u?

it's not dat i believe it...but...
why dun i give it a try?
yes....
human is always bothered by their curiosity....

i'm still waiting for de result...
as for u...would u try? or wouldn't u?
well...it's all depend on u...
trying 2 do it doesn't mean dat u believe it....

finally happiness came by...

salam....

i was observed for de 2nd time..
finally...i managed 2 get better marks than b4...
i was doing quite well..
the comments were more positive and constructive..
i was indeed very happy...

yet..i still don't feel satisfied wif my performance...
i'm hoping dat for de 3rd observation i can get higher marks...
if now i'm at de average level of performance....
i will be happier if i can end my practical with de perfect performance....
so...rite now..i have 2 prepare de best lesson plan for next observation...
Allah is always on my side give me blessing...
hopefully luck is on my side too....

de tense was at de peak!

salam...

T E N S I O N !
I juz couldn't say anything else except this word...
i was really sad and stressed after my 1st observation..
de lesson was a failure 4 me..
i juz didn't know how 2 prepare interactive + creative xtvties 4 de students
they very hardly speak in English..
how can i ask them 2 present and talk in front of de class?
was it possible?
or was i too dumb 2 plan a good lesson?
2 fulfil dis high expectation - was indeed too demanding 4 me...
i planned simple xtvties and provided guidelines..
as i expected - they couldn't answer!
it was only at de while-xtvt - i gave them structured questions
wut they needed 2 do was transfer the information from the passage into the blanks...
continued to post-xtvt - they were required 2 write a short answer of only three sentences based on the guideline given...
u know wut?
most of them couldn't answer....
it was not that they didn't know de answer...
they juz didn't know how to make English sentences...
if i were 2 teach them 2 write...i've 2 begin from de beginning...
start from ZERO...
i was very tensed....upset...dissatisfied....
i juz could hope dat during de coming holiday...
i could fresh up mentally + emotionally + physically...

bz...bz...bz....

salam...

it has been more than a month since my last post...
i've started my practical....
how is it?
hmm......
busy....and busy.....and busy......
if b4 this i only heard and read 'bout others' experience...
now i know how does it feel...
usually at de end of de day i will definitely out of energy....
but it's ok as enough rest will help...it's like refueling your car engine...
then...wut is my problem?
i am in stress all the time....
i don't know if others don't feel the same but...
i am definitely under a great pressure....
it feels like a giant and heavy rock is on my head....
the tense is sometimes unbearable.....
i feel like crying...no...i cried...yes...i cried...
i couldn't believe that.....
i juz couldn't endure the burden...
i was thinking of giving up...wasn't i?
hmm....~sighing....
how can i do that......
i can't....really can't...
i'm not sure how i will end my practical....
it's really hard....believe me....
a lot of challenges....
it demands me something more than i could give.....
o dear god.....
give me the strength that i need..
o god de merciful creator...
i seek 4 ur bless n i wait 4 de best....

~~~~~~

new semester....new beginning...

salam...

only now i manage 2 write a new post...
well, i'm now in the 7th semester...
dis sem i'll be going 2 school...for practical...
i'm now back in Institut Perguruan Sultan Abdul Halim...after 2 years in UPSI...
hmm...compared 2 de old times...dis place has been upgraded a lot..
much better than before...
no more made-of-wood bed and wardrobe... dh maju ckit lah..
de library has a new look...
de internet can now be assessed in the hostel...
but dis facility is still under construction...so most of de time we can't online..
though de signal is good but de connection is poor...
but i can't compare dis institute wif upsi....
i'm so much grateful dat we get to live in the hostel...
i juz hope dat dis sem i will succeed in my practical...
wif my fiance beside...
every second is so meaningful...wif him giving me de strength 2 survive...

at last....alhamdulillah...

salam...

alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah....alhamdulillah......

i woke up early dat sunday morning.... at about 10am....de 'mak andam' came n did her job... at first i was shocked when she wanted 2 trimmed my eyebrow...sy mmg xpnh ckur dn mmg xnk ckur... but then she said..."xpe dik, ckit je nk bg bntukn kning ni..."...tp lps tu sy dh rs byk sgt bulu kning yg gugur kt muke ni... dlm ati "selamatlah kening aku...mst byk dia ckur..." but i was satisfied wif de result... about 12 rmbongan laki2 smpai... alhamdulillah slmt smpai... i was quite sad bcoz his 'umi' couldn't come... yelah jauh kt klantan... one more thing, his sister pn nk tnang 4 jun ni... i was really nervous...dlm ati mcm xcaye nk tnang... de elders discussed 4 about 30mins..after dat his godsister came in n sarungkn cincin....while i gave him 9 'hantaran', he gave me 5 'hantaran'.... i was so grateful n thankful 2 Allah 4 giving me dis precious present.... i was also thankful 2 my relatives who had helped my fmily n i 2 arrange dis ceremony.... alhamdulillah... me, Siti Rahmah Md Tapsir has engaged 2 Mohd Izuwan Mat Rahim...

~ hantaran dr sy untuk dia...

~ cincin tunang utk dia...suasa dgn russian diamond...

~ godsister, Kak Dah sarungkan cincin pd sy...

~ mgaminkn doa

~ inilah orangnye.... :)