a big smile...

salam...
alhamdulillah...
akhirnya...arini lecturer dtg for last time..
she came n discussed with my mentor teacher for final result...

i feel so relieve....
brsyukur sgt2....
smoga dpt kputusan cmrlang..amiin
dn usaha mngajar slama ni dberkati allah...

next week will be my last week...
planning to have a small party with the students...
i also plan 2 give them a bookmark as a token of appreciation...
wutever it is...
i feel happy all along my practical...
happy for the students understand my lessons...
n like me as their teacher...

do u judge and punish others...

salam...

one of my friends said dat she don't judge people...
at first i thought ~ how good r u...
but then i realised ~ is it true?
no...whether u realise or not...
we never stop from judging others around us...
yes...we do judge people...
even we don't know them...
the least that u saw someone and u criticise his or her dressing or looks...
it's normal right?
we judge people everyday..and maybe every minute of our life...
when we judge someone or something...
it means dat we learn wut is gud...wut is bad...
should we do dis...or shouldn't we...
we can never stop thinking...
if u stop 2 think ~ that's mean u r no longer a human being...

but something is bugging my mind...
if it is ok 2 judge others...

is it ok if we punish them?

there's a vast difference between those two...
when u punish someone..it means dat u r not satisfied with him or her..or with someone actions or words...or anything...
n somehow u react negatively towards them...
meaning that u scold...u ignore...u hate...
and many other ways...

i wonder why there r some people who punish someone...
we r not a God n perfect in everything...
each of us is different from each other...
so it's so natural that we don't agree wif someone in many ways...
and we can do a lot of mistakes....intentionally n unintentionally...
but it don't give us the power 2 punish someone....
it is ok if we judge so that we learn about life...
but punishing people for their mistakes....we should never do it....
except we go beyond the law stated by the government...
if not...we should not be a judge who punish others in a court made by us...

the last one....

salam...

yesterday..i had finished my 4th observation wif my mentor teacher..
it was the last one...
suppose there should b another obsrvation...
specifically pair observation...
mentor teachr + supervising lcturer will come and observe at the same time..
honestly...i am hoping dat it won't b carried out...
i'm tired...
i felt breathless every time they came n observed...
bcoz during every observation i got really nervous..
it was indeed tiring 2 control your nerves and make sure everything goes on smoothly....
please mdms....no more observation...

i am thinking of going out 2nite...
to celebrate myself!

wut do the numbers tell u?

salam...

recently, my fren introduced a new thing 2 me..
but mybe it's not new 2 u...
~~METAPHYSICS~~
have u ever heard this?

using our date of birth...
add..minus...divide and times
they will come out wif an upside down triangle
wif numbers dat somehow show wut type of person are u...
wut are ur strengths n weaknesses..
n 2 de extend dat we can somehow know how much money would we have at de end of our life...
CAN U BELIEVE IT.....Can't u?

it's not dat i believe it...but...
why dun i give it a try?
yes....
human is always bothered by their curiosity....

i'm still waiting for de result...
as for u...would u try? or wouldn't u?
well...it's all depend on u...
trying 2 do it doesn't mean dat u believe it....

finally happiness came by...

salam....

i was observed for de 2nd time..
finally...i managed 2 get better marks than b4...
i was doing quite well..
the comments were more positive and constructive..
i was indeed very happy...

yet..i still don't feel satisfied wif my performance...
i'm hoping dat for de 3rd observation i can get higher marks...
if now i'm at de average level of performance....
i will be happier if i can end my practical with de perfect performance....
so...rite now..i have 2 prepare de best lesson plan for next observation...
Allah is always on my side give me blessing...
hopefully luck is on my side too....

de tense was at de peak!

salam...

T E N S I O N !
I juz couldn't say anything else except this word...
i was really sad and stressed after my 1st observation..
de lesson was a failure 4 me..
i juz didn't know how 2 prepare interactive + creative xtvties 4 de students
they very hardly speak in English..
how can i ask them 2 present and talk in front of de class?
was it possible?
or was i too dumb 2 plan a good lesson?
2 fulfil dis high expectation - was indeed too demanding 4 me...
i planned simple xtvties and provided guidelines..
as i expected - they couldn't answer!
it was only at de while-xtvt - i gave them structured questions
wut they needed 2 do was transfer the information from the passage into the blanks...
continued to post-xtvt - they were required 2 write a short answer of only three sentences based on the guideline given...
u know wut?
most of them couldn't answer....
it was not that they didn't know de answer...
they juz didn't know how to make English sentences...
if i were 2 teach them 2 write...i've 2 begin from de beginning...
start from ZERO...
i was very tensed....upset...dissatisfied....
i juz could hope dat during de coming holiday...
i could fresh up mentally + emotionally + physically...

bz...bz...bz....

salam...

it has been more than a month since my last post...
i've started my practical....
how is it?
hmm......
busy....and busy.....and busy......
if b4 this i only heard and read 'bout others' experience...
now i know how does it feel...
usually at de end of de day i will definitely out of energy....
but it's ok as enough rest will help...it's like refueling your car engine...
then...wut is my problem?
i am in stress all the time....
i don't know if others don't feel the same but...
i am definitely under a great pressure....
it feels like a giant and heavy rock is on my head....
the tense is sometimes unbearable.....
i feel like crying...no...i cried...yes...i cried...
i couldn't believe that.....
i juz couldn't endure the burden...
i was thinking of giving up...wasn't i?
hmm....~sighing....
how can i do that......
i can't....really can't...
i'm not sure how i will end my practical....
it's really hard....believe me....
a lot of challenges....
it demands me something more than i could give.....
o dear god.....
give me the strength that i need..
o god de merciful creator...
i seek 4 ur bless n i wait 4 de best....

~~~~~~

new semester....new beginning...

salam...

only now i manage 2 write a new post...
well, i'm now in the 7th semester...
dis sem i'll be going 2 school...for practical...
i'm now back in Institut Perguruan Sultan Abdul Halim...after 2 years in UPSI...
hmm...compared 2 de old times...dis place has been upgraded a lot..
much better than before...
no more made-of-wood bed and wardrobe... dh maju ckit lah..
de library has a new look...
de internet can now be assessed in the hostel...
but dis facility is still under construction...so most of de time we can't online..
though de signal is good but de connection is poor...
but i can't compare dis institute wif upsi....
i'm so much grateful dat we get to live in the hostel...
i juz hope dat dis sem i will succeed in my practical...
wif my fiance beside...
every second is so meaningful...wif him giving me de strength 2 survive...

at last....alhamdulillah...

salam...

alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah....alhamdulillah......

i woke up early dat sunday morning.... at about 10am....de 'mak andam' came n did her job... at first i was shocked when she wanted 2 trimmed my eyebrow...sy mmg xpnh ckur dn mmg xnk ckur... but then she said..."xpe dik, ckit je nk bg bntukn kning ni..."...tp lps tu sy dh rs byk sgt bulu kning yg gugur kt muke ni... dlm ati "selamatlah kening aku...mst byk dia ckur..." but i was satisfied wif de result... about 12 rmbongan laki2 smpai... alhamdulillah slmt smpai... i was quite sad bcoz his 'umi' couldn't come... yelah jauh kt klantan... one more thing, his sister pn nk tnang 4 jun ni... i was really nervous...dlm ati mcm xcaye nk tnang... de elders discussed 4 about 30mins..after dat his godsister came in n sarungkn cincin....while i gave him 9 'hantaran', he gave me 5 'hantaran'.... i was so grateful n thankful 2 Allah 4 giving me dis precious present.... i was also thankful 2 my relatives who had helped my fmily n i 2 arrange dis ceremony.... alhamdulillah... me, Siti Rahmah Md Tapsir has engaged 2 Mohd Izuwan Mat Rahim...

~ hantaran dr sy untuk dia...

~ cincin tunang utk dia...suasa dgn russian diamond...

~ godsister, Kak Dah sarungkan cincin pd sy...

~ mgaminkn doa

~ inilah orangnye.... :)

in the name of allah.....

salam...

rmmber about de BIG DAY dat i've mentioned b4...?

well...de time has come 4 me 2 announce about it...

alhamdulillah...

i'm pleased 2 announce dat....

i'm getting engaged dis 31st may...

de theme is pink + white + cream...

rs mcm2....

xcaye...takut...bdebar2...

but i'm feeling GRATEFUL....really grateful...

praise 2 ALLAH SWT...

for i've found de right man...

who will care for me...

who luv me 2 de fullest...

who will protect me day n nite...

(insyaallah)...

hopefully...:

allah will make it easy 2 us...

n de ceremony will run smoothly...

hopefully...:

hepiness is ours...

n only till death do us apart....

amiin yarabbal 'alamin...

p/s: thank u my dear....

home sweet home....

salam....

alhamdulillah...

i'm now at home...

i hv a month holiday b4 de new semester...

home...

is de best place...

bleh mkn ape2 je...

bleh berehat....

bleh tgk tv...

bleh jln2 g shopping mall...

i juz feel so happy...

2 b here....

my HOME SWEET HOME...

alhamdulillah....

salam....

praise 2 allah de almighty...
today is de last paper for dis sem...
but, de questions were extremely difficult...
instead of feeling glad...
i feel afraid as i can't answer de paper well...
de time allocated was not enuf...
for 10 structured questions + 3 essay questions...
2 hours n a 1/2 was really not enuf...
but then...it was over...

anyway...2moro i'm going home...
my parents r coming all de way from BP...
hope 2 get back safely....amiin....

alhamdulillah....
rite now i can think about my plan 4 dis coming june....
wif ALLAH's blessing...
hope everything will be fine...
amiin ya rabbal 'alamin.... :)

one more 2 go...

salam...

dis is still in da exam week...
my last post was on 19th...
i juz didn't hv enuf time 2 even post about 1 thing...
limited time 4 any other things...
my exam started on 27th - two papers = eng. 4 science n maths + grammar....
then, 28th -malaysian literature in english....
n 29th - pengujian, pengukuran dn penilaian pendidikan...
drpd sume ni...xde stu yg senang....
ssah....nk score... tkut sbb i'm fighting for a list of A's
hmm.....penat otak ni.....
but.......
there's one more 2 go...de last one.....
on dis coming 5th - teaching of reading n writing...
i hv 5days...should b used 2 study...
but....i didn't....yesterday n today r wasted....
doing nothing....i'm feeling guilty...2 myself...
hmm....mlm ni kna start study gak....
i keep reminding myself dat...dis is de last paper....
so, i should n must study....

r u de women....?

salam...

today...i juz don't know why...when i woke up in de morning....de first thing i thought of was LOVE...
hmm...i could feel de happiness of being LOVED....by my parents + sister +brother + relatives + of course Him....
i'm more than grateful for i'm not alone in dis world...
i'm in LOVE....with de LOVE He is giving me....











well....while there r many tips regarding LOVE dat i found in de internet....
i would like 2 share one of them....as it is written in Malay thus i shall keep it original....

8 ciri wanita yang disukai lelaki:

• Keanak-anakan
  
• Penuh pengertian
• Menghargai
• Menjaga penampilan
• Pandai berbicara
• Pandai bergaul dan menyesuaikan diri
• Menghormati diri sendiri
• Simpati dan prihatin

from de list, r u possessing de criteria?
it's not merely judging urself....but do take it positively....
ways in knowing wut can we improve about ourself...
and of course...make others LOVE us....

p/s: dis info is taken from a cute and informative website about LOVE... interested? juz go to http://www.tentangcinta.com/

out of budget....?

salam....

arini ade nite market (psr mlm la)...
jd nk bli bhn2 nk msk kt sna nti...
lgpun mgu ni mls nk kuar rmah..
biasala...budget lari ckit....
duit dlm bank?
mmg ade tp nk jimat la....nape? u'll know later why.........

so 3.30pm i made my way 2 de bus stop....
luckily there were not so many students...
smpai je pekan...my first stop was Grand Union...(kdai pling grand kt tnjg malim ni.. :D)
i bought 10 eggs (RM2.80) + soo hoon (RM1.00) + onion (75sen) + kulit tahu kering (1.75)
then i went 2 buy de vegetables: baby kailan + cabbage + kcg botor + cili padi = RM2.5o
add all = RM7.80

rs mmg jimat sgt...sbb bleh msk 4 at least 4times....
so if u divide RM7.80 wif 4 = RM1.95
JIMAT KAN?

so rsnye bleh buat conclusion la....
mmg trbukti msk sndri lg menjimatkn...
so...if u r out of budget....juz do like me...
COOK UR OWN MEAL....
u can really save a lot...
xcaya? buat dlu...bru tau....
bye.....

i juz couldn't wait....

salam...

it's bout 1 week time b4 de final exam....
tp...xtau la....i dun hv de mood 2 study...
arini je tdo memanjang....kbetulan tgh 'cuti' jd subuh pn xbgun....
dis morning i woke up late...very2 late...
dlm pkul 12 bru bgun...
dlm ati mmg takut nk exam....but...i dun feel like opening de book...

i juz couldn't wait 2 go back home...
i want 2 get away from dis place....(too many sad memories here)
i want 2 be wif my beloved family...and him..

i juz couldn't wait 2 finish de exam...
i'm already tired...tired of facing de exam blues...
tired of feeling stressed...2 maintain de result...

i juz couldn't wait 2 stop thinking bout de past...
i dun want 2 be bothered bout it...
i have 2 continue breathing 4 new life...

i juz want 2 b at home....
i dun want 2 b here anymore...
bcoz nothing here left 4 me....
i really want 2 get home....
where there waiting 4 me people who appreciate me....
n love me with no boundary....

chef wannabe.....

peace b upon u...

today...i felt like cooking 4 my dinner...
there was some spaghetti left by my housemate....
but.....i didn't have enuf ingredients....
hmmmm......
so i decided to cook spaghetti kampung style...
n then i juz used my rice cooker...(we r not allowed 2 use a stove)
but i turned out 2 b...
ermm.....i could say...
pretty delicious....(not bad ar)...bleh kwen dh huhuhu
ada la rse mcm sos PREGO tuh....:D

let's us see wut de ingredients r:

1-of course spaghetti enuf 4 one stomach (rebus dulu, jgn lupe ltk myak ckit)
2-1/2 of a middle size onion (ptg dadu)
3-two tomatoes (1 bji kisar, i bj lg ptg dadu jgk)
4-some chili paste
5-1/2 Knorr chicken cube
6-three tablespoon of sweet soy sauce
7-two tablespoon of chili sauce/tomato sauce
8-some cooking oil
9-for sure some sugar n salt

now...we have come to de steps...:

1- Put some oil in de rice cooker, tgu smpai pnas....put de onion n wait till u smell de delicious aroma of de onion...
2- Then, put de chili paste + tomatoes + chicken cube + soy sauce + chili sauce...
3- Wait till de suace is half cooked...put some sugar n salt...scukup rasa k
4- Taste de sauce......n pour it onto de spaghetti...
5- Taraa....dh siap pun....bleh mkn dh....

xssah jg msak ni kn?
so...do try dis recipe yourself....
ooopss...b4 dat...here is de result.... :)
memperkenalkan SPAGHETTI KAMPUNG STYLE....

kisah perutku....

salam...

arini mcmane ntah....
bgun2 pg je sakit perut....
stkt ni dh 5kali msuk toilet.....
smlm mkn ape je...
smbal bilis + putu mayam + rendang ayam + buah pelam....
rendang aym kut sbb pedas...

rs memulas2 sgt perut ni...
xtertahan2....mcm....mnum teh kurus plak....
lps mkn je trus sakit prut...msuk toilet...
penat sbb dh 5kali kuar msuk....
adoiiii......

pengajaranye.....bli mknan yg disahkn bersih....
dh tau xthn pedas...jgn mkn...
hmm...hrp2 mlm nti ok dh...n xyah g toilet lg....

have u ever.....?

salam...

have u ever....
lost sumone u really LUV?

there was a gal...
juz learnt about de outside cruel world...

she LOVED a fren so much...still LOVES her so much...
and will never stop LOVING her...

one day....
sumting happened...
she thought dat her fren would be much better without her...
she didn't ask...believing dat was de best for her fren...
she went away from her fren...
created a BIG DISTANCE in their once-really-close relationship....
she didn't realise dat...
she made a mistake........

now...
she has lost sumting....
sumting she could never get again elsewhere....
she is sad....
she regrets....
her stupidness....her ignorence.....
has made A LOST...
LOST OF A BELOVED ONES..... LOST OF A BELOVED FREN....

she is now only capable of praying....
she PRAYED for her fren...
still PRAYS for her...
and will never stop PRAYING for her fren...






















p/s: I'M SO SORRY.....my fren (u know who u r)

sumthing BIG is around de corner......

salam...
in dis one month time....
there r TWO BIG things which will add some more colours to my life...















wut r they?

de BIG one is:
of course....exam...for dis semester...
for dis semester is quite tough...i'm so much burdened wif it...
i've learnt to lessen my stress...but...as de exam is coming...it adds up de stress...
i wish i can be more relax dis semester but able to score in de final....
why do i have to be in stress?
to maintain de result...which sumhow doesn't determine ur true ability...
and bcoz i compared myself wif de others...even when i know de fact dat EVERYBODY IS DIFFERENT....
and like everybody else...i'm afraid of loosing...
while it is a gud lesson for me...i try to take it positively...
but sumtimes my imagination is beyond my control...

one more thing is...DE BIGGEST....:
i've planned sumting...
about sumting...
to create sumting....
till i never stop praying....
but...only ALLAH knows...
we plan but HE determines all...
for dis is in de name of ALLAH...
i pray to be blessed by HIS present...

until de BIGGEST THING is happening.....
i'll tell n share wif u wut de THING is.... :)

sir......

hmm....arini nk ckp psl keje GRAMMAR....
pg td ingt dh start microteaching tp........tak jgak...
all dis while...i've been thinking...
"Hmm....sir, wut do u want actually?"
"Sory sir, i couldn't understand ur explanation..."
"Hmm...Napela dia ni mcm ni ek? pandai sgt kut..."
well, no body knows wut does he want...
so, for so many reasons....i juz don't bother 2 have a serious look at his assgmnt...
module je dh bpuluh pages wif none of us knows whether it's correct or not...kra gamble le buat keje dia....
one more thing...he keeps on changing de requirements he wants...

hmm....when i look at him...in de class...every monday....9-12 (xpnah pn smpai pkl 12)...
i can't read wut he is thinking at dat moment...
i juz see his forehead for dat he is famous for...(brkilat mcm tiap2 ari polish)
i juz hear he said NEXT...NEXT...NEXT....

sumtimes...i think dat there's sumthing wrong wif me...(is it?)
bcoz till de end of de semester...i still couldn't understand him...not even a single one!
BUTTTTTT....everybody else in de class is too having de problem as mine...
SO.....
can i say dat there's sumthing wrong wif him? can't i?

a short holiday...

aftr two weeks of tiredness of completing a long list of assignments...
finally, de rest day had came....
yesterday i went to KL wif fu ai...
well, it wasn't a total rest actually...
we were walking de whole day...for SHOPPING! (women most favourite xtvt)
it was like a walkathon...frm Sogo to Sungei Wang and de final was Times Square...
wut do i get?

5 in 1 SATISFACTION....
1- a gud rest for my mind...which is burdened wif assigmnets n 'unwanted problems'...
2- a green COMMA blouse..
3- an only RM3.10 lipice colour gloss..
4- a white Bodyglove T-shirt...
5- a chocolate Pashmina shawl...

1+2+3+4+5 = not more than RM150....and not over my budget limit...

for many reasons...
it was indeed a HOLIDAY for me.... :)

perah otak...

hmm...(sighing)...i'm trying to write a 5000-words essay...feels like my brain is going to burst...penat perah otak...
hmmm...mengeluh lg...xbhnti mngeluh
rite now i've about 1800 words...another 3200 words...i dunno how to GORENG...i keep on repeating the same ideas...
sbb rjin buat le keje last minute....
worst come to worst...i've to finish it...no matter wut bcoz the deadline is TOMORROW.....
jd solutionnye....GORENG SMPAI HANGUS....(mcm ikn kt bwh ni...)

craving for putu mayam

i haven't eat anything from dis morning...perut dh berkeroncong..mcm2 lgu dh bnyi ni..feel like going to pasar malam...but it's about to rain...wish to eat putu mayam...the only putu mayam sold in da nite market....

thanks 2 allah the most gracious

assalamualaikum...alhamdulillah..i'm still breathing...standing
to share part of my life...