bz...bz...bz....

salam...

it has been more than a month since my last post...
i've started my practical....
how is it?
hmm......
busy....and busy.....and busy......
if b4 this i only heard and read 'bout others' experience...
now i know how does it feel...
usually at de end of de day i will definitely out of energy....
but it's ok as enough rest will help...it's like refueling your car engine...
then...wut is my problem?
i am in stress all the time....
i don't know if others don't feel the same but...
i am definitely under a great pressure....
it feels like a giant and heavy rock is on my head....
the tense is sometimes unbearable.....
i feel like crying...no...i cried...yes...i cried...
i couldn't believe that.....
i juz couldn't endure the burden...
i was thinking of giving up...wasn't i?
hmm....~sighing....
how can i do that......
i can't....really can't...
i'm not sure how i will end my practical....
it's really hard....believe me....
a lot of challenges....
it demands me something more than i could give.....
o dear god.....
give me the strength that i need..
o god de merciful creator...
i seek 4 ur bless n i wait 4 de best....

~~~~~~

new semester....new beginning...

salam...

only now i manage 2 write a new post...
well, i'm now in the 7th semester...
dis sem i'll be going 2 school...for practical...
i'm now back in Institut Perguruan Sultan Abdul Halim...after 2 years in UPSI...
hmm...compared 2 de old times...dis place has been upgraded a lot..
much better than before...
no more made-of-wood bed and wardrobe... dh maju ckit lah..
de library has a new look...
de internet can now be assessed in the hostel...
but dis facility is still under construction...so most of de time we can't online..
though de signal is good but de connection is poor...
but i can't compare dis institute wif upsi....
i'm so much grateful dat we get to live in the hostel...
i juz hope dat dis sem i will succeed in my practical...
wif my fiance beside...
every second is so meaningful...wif him giving me de strength 2 survive...

at last....alhamdulillah...

salam...

alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah....alhamdulillah......

i woke up early dat sunday morning.... at about 10am....de 'mak andam' came n did her job... at first i was shocked when she wanted 2 trimmed my eyebrow...sy mmg xpnh ckur dn mmg xnk ckur... but then she said..."xpe dik, ckit je nk bg bntukn kning ni..."...tp lps tu sy dh rs byk sgt bulu kning yg gugur kt muke ni... dlm ati "selamatlah kening aku...mst byk dia ckur..." but i was satisfied wif de result... about 12 rmbongan laki2 smpai... alhamdulillah slmt smpai... i was quite sad bcoz his 'umi' couldn't come... yelah jauh kt klantan... one more thing, his sister pn nk tnang 4 jun ni... i was really nervous...dlm ati mcm xcaye nk tnang... de elders discussed 4 about 30mins..after dat his godsister came in n sarungkn cincin....while i gave him 9 'hantaran', he gave me 5 'hantaran'.... i was so grateful n thankful 2 Allah 4 giving me dis precious present.... i was also thankful 2 my relatives who had helped my fmily n i 2 arrange dis ceremony.... alhamdulillah... me, Siti Rahmah Md Tapsir has engaged 2 Mohd Izuwan Mat Rahim...

~ hantaran dr sy untuk dia...

~ cincin tunang utk dia...suasa dgn russian diamond...

~ godsister, Kak Dah sarungkan cincin pd sy...

~ mgaminkn doa

~ inilah orangnye.... :)

in the name of allah.....

salam...

rmmber about de BIG DAY dat i've mentioned b4...?

well...de time has come 4 me 2 announce about it...

alhamdulillah...

i'm pleased 2 announce dat....

i'm getting engaged dis 31st may...

de theme is pink + white + cream...

rs mcm2....

xcaye...takut...bdebar2...

but i'm feeling GRATEFUL....really grateful...

praise 2 ALLAH SWT...

for i've found de right man...

who will care for me...

who luv me 2 de fullest...

who will protect me day n nite...

(insyaallah)...

hopefully...:

allah will make it easy 2 us...

n de ceremony will run smoothly...

hopefully...:

hepiness is ours...

n only till death do us apart....

amiin yarabbal 'alamin...

p/s: thank u my dear....

home sweet home....

salam....

alhamdulillah...

i'm now at home...

i hv a month holiday b4 de new semester...

home...

is de best place...

bleh mkn ape2 je...

bleh berehat....

bleh tgk tv...

bleh jln2 g shopping mall...

i juz feel so happy...

2 b here....

my HOME SWEET HOME...

alhamdulillah....

salam....

praise 2 allah de almighty...
today is de last paper for dis sem...
but, de questions were extremely difficult...
instead of feeling glad...
i feel afraid as i can't answer de paper well...
de time allocated was not enuf...
for 10 structured questions + 3 essay questions...
2 hours n a 1/2 was really not enuf...
but then...it was over...

anyway...2moro i'm going home...
my parents r coming all de way from BP...
hope 2 get back safely....amiin....

alhamdulillah....
rite now i can think about my plan 4 dis coming june....
wif ALLAH's blessing...
hope everything will be fine...
amiin ya rabbal 'alamin.... :)

one more 2 go...

salam...

dis is still in da exam week...
my last post was on 19th...
i juz didn't hv enuf time 2 even post about 1 thing...
limited time 4 any other things...
my exam started on 27th - two papers = eng. 4 science n maths + grammar....
then, 28th -malaysian literature in english....
n 29th - pengujian, pengukuran dn penilaian pendidikan...
drpd sume ni...xde stu yg senang....
ssah....nk score... tkut sbb i'm fighting for a list of A's
hmm.....penat otak ni.....
but.......
there's one more 2 go...de last one.....
on dis coming 5th - teaching of reading n writing...
i hv 5days...should b used 2 study...
but....i didn't....yesterday n today r wasted....
doing nothing....i'm feeling guilty...2 myself...
hmm....mlm ni kna start study gak....
i keep reminding myself dat...dis is de last paper....
so, i should n must study....